Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Dear Dan,
I miss you, even though we are talking more now than we have in recent years I still miss you. With you being all the way in NC and me in IL its hard. You were the first man I lived with...that I didnt have some DNA connection with. All of your nagging to make me clean up...i remember it like it was yesterday. I miss Wexford Hills and AT&T. Us outracing a tornado...those were the days.
We've been through so much. You've seen me at my worst and you've never left my side. Protected me from harm and always listened and offered sound advice. (even though i rarely took it)
It was so wonderful to see you over Christmas. I love surprises. Cant wait to see you this year.
Love always,
Kan
I miss you, even though we are talking more now than we have in recent years I still miss you. With you being all the way in NC and me in IL its hard. You were the first man I lived with...that I didnt have some DNA connection with. All of your nagging to make me clean up...i remember it like it was yesterday. I miss Wexford Hills and AT&T. Us outracing a tornado...those were the days.
We've been through so much. You've seen me at my worst and you've never left my side. Protected me from harm and always listened and offered sound advice. (even though i rarely took it)
It was so wonderful to see you over Christmas. I love surprises. Cant wait to see you this year.
Love always,
Kan
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Hey Bobby!!!!
I decided to let you get your shine on day 16. You are one of my favoriteAuburn Alabama Roll Tide, bacon loving e-friends. You have always been supportive of the radio show, daboard, and me in general. You are an awesome father and husband. I hope to one day meet you (just dont bring Dub..lol) and we can have a bacon buffet. Bacon burgers, bacon dogs, bacon bologna, bacon wrapped shrimp, bacon kabobs, well you get the picture.
Roll Tide!!! (except for the last game that they play against GSU),
Kandice
I decided to let you get your shine on day 16. You are one of my favorite
Roll Tide!!! (except for the last game that they play against GSU),
Kandice
Monday, November 8, 2010
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Dear Brittany and Destiny,
I love you, I miss you, I'll see you soon.
Love,
Mom
I love you, I miss you, I'll see you soon.
Love,
Mom
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Dear John,
We need to have a conversation...in person. Its been what 5 years now. We have the most intriguing and thought provoking conversations, dont we? I feel like you are on my to-do list. Not someone I need "to-do" but you know what I'm saying. LOL Ok before I say too much I will stop. Call me and schedule an appointment so that we can talk this thing out and come to some sort of conclusion.
Anxiously waiting,
Kandice
We need to have a conversation...in person. Its been what 5 years now. We have the most intriguing and thought provoking conversations, dont we? I feel like you are on my to-do list. Not someone I need "to-do" but you know what I'm saying. LOL Ok before I say too much I will stop. Call me and schedule an appointment so that we can talk this thing out and come to some sort of conclusion.
Anxiously waiting,
Kandice
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Day 13 - Someone you wish could forgive you
Dear Marty,
I've been dreading writing this letter, but just like the others its something I need to get out. I dont know if you have forgiven me for all that I have said and done or not. Maybe you have. I just feel the need to say a few things. It feels odd being in this city and actually being so close to where you live currently and never seeing you and never talking to you. We had a bond that I have never had with anyone else. I wish often that I could go back in time and change a few things...not alot. I would have still loved you as much as I did. However, it would not have been a romantic love and I would still have my friend right now
I learned something very powerful on Oprah yesterday. She said someone told her "Forgiveness is giving up the hope that the past could have been any different." So I am moving on from wondering what could have been. Actually I have moved on a while ago and I know you have too. I spoke to our mutual friend about whether I should contact you to re-establish a friendship. He said it would be a good idea but I never made the effort. After some thought I figured I should live well enough alone. If we are meant to be friends again, time will do the work for us. I wish you well, I was thinking about you the other day...because it was Jahz's birthday...I didnt forget :)
Peace and blessings,
Kandi
I've been dreading writing this letter, but just like the others its something I need to get out. I dont know if you have forgiven me for all that I have said and done or not. Maybe you have. I just feel the need to say a few things. It feels odd being in this city and actually being so close to where you live currently and never seeing you and never talking to you. We had a bond that I have never had with anyone else. I wish often that I could go back in time and change a few things...not alot. I would have still loved you as much as I did. However, it would not have been a romantic love and I would still have my friend right now
I learned something very powerful on Oprah yesterday. She said someone told her "Forgiveness is giving up the hope that the past could have been any different." So I am moving on from wondering what could have been. Actually I have moved on a while ago and I know you have too. I spoke to our mutual friend about whether I should contact you to re-establish a friendship. He said it would be a good idea but I never made the effort. After some thought I figured I should live well enough alone. If we are meant to be friends again, time will do the work for us. I wish you well, I was thinking about you the other day...because it was Jahz's birthday...I didnt forget :)
Peace and blessings,
Kandi
Friday, November 5, 2010
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Dear Mike,
I dont hate you and I dont think you have cause me a lot of pain, I just figured you were the closest to it so here you go! You are a liar, and not even a good liar. You tried so hard to be Mr. Playa Playa and got busted every single time. *cue Antoine Dodson* you are dumb, you are so dumb! Anyway, I'm glad I didnt marry you, I would be stuck with the child support that you are currently dodging by moving to Ohio. I wish you all the best....sexually transmitted diseases. :)
Signed,
Happy to have dodged that bullet.
I dont hate you and I dont think you have cause me a lot of pain, I just figured you were the closest to it so here you go! You are a liar, and not even a good liar. You tried so hard to be Mr. Playa Playa and got busted every single time. *cue Antoine Dodson* you are dumb, you are so dumb! Anyway, I'm glad I didnt marry you, I would be stuck with the child support that you are currently dodging by moving to Ohio. I wish you all the best....sexually transmitted diseases. :)
Signed,
Happy to have dodged that bullet.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Dear Grandfather,
I have been searching my brain for an appropriate title to refer to you as. I am stuck on grandfather because technically that is what you are. I never met you so I dont know what else to call you. My only memory of you is you coming to my grandmother's house and her sending us to play in the back. I remember coming back up to the curtain that separated the kitchen from the living room and hearing her ask you "Nita's kids are here do you wanna see them?" And your reply simply being No, what do I want to do that for? I went back to the back to play. It was not until later in life that I realized how much that affected me.
From what I have been told of you, you were not really that nice of a man. I guess it was better that I didnt know you and that Dave stepped up to be our grandfather. Even after suffering a stroke and having limited mobility he was a better grandfather than you ever were. I hope you are resting in peace, actually, I dont. I really dont care. I just needed to write this to close that chapter of my life.
Deuces.
I have been searching my brain for an appropriate title to refer to you as. I am stuck on grandfather because technically that is what you are. I never met you so I dont know what else to call you. My only memory of you is you coming to my grandmother's house and her sending us to play in the back. I remember coming back up to the curtain that separated the kitchen from the living room and hearing her ask you "Nita's kids are here do you wanna see them?" And your reply simply being No, what do I want to do that for? I went back to the back to play. It was not until later in life that I realized how much that affected me.
From what I have been told of you, you were not really that nice of a man. I guess it was better that I didnt know you and that Dave stepped up to be our grandfather. Even after suffering a stroke and having limited mobility he was a better grandfather than you ever were. I hope you are resting in peace, actually, I dont. I really dont care. I just needed to write this to close that chapter of my life.
Deuces.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Dear Keith,
Its been a minute since we've done our usual game of catch up. How are you, how are the kids, the wife, etc. I remember the days that we used to talk all day long. I loved hanging out with you. You always kept it 100 with me. You wanna know whats funny? I dont even remember where we met. I'm sure it was on some internet chat site but which one I dont remember. We were going through similar situations at the same time which helped our bond grow quickly. We both have had the "what if" thoughts and they have really gotten us nowhere. lol Who knows....anyway. I'll be back in Atlanta over Christmas and we NEED to get together and talk like we used to. Just sit down for dinner and some drinks and kick it. OMG I will never forget our trip to Tunica and you being scared of the backwoods of Mississippi. A Jersey boy in the South scared to death. PRICELESS.
Love you, miss you, see you soon,
Kan
Its been a minute since we've done our usual game of catch up. How are you, how are the kids, the wife, etc. I remember the days that we used to talk all day long. I loved hanging out with you. You always kept it 100 with me. You wanna know whats funny? I dont even remember where we met. I'm sure it was on some internet chat site but which one I dont remember. We were going through similar situations at the same time which helped our bond grow quickly. We both have had the "what if" thoughts and they have really gotten us nowhere. lol Who knows....anyway. I'll be back in Atlanta over Christmas and we NEED to get together and talk like we used to. Just sit down for dinner and some drinks and kick it. OMG I will never forget our trip to Tunica and you being scared of the backwoods of Mississippi. A Jersey boy in the South scared to death. PRICELESS.
Love you, miss you, see you soon,
Kan
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Day 9 - Someone I want to meet
Dear Dwayne,
I have dreamed of the day that I would meet you. We would see each other and give each other a hug. Not the church hug with that space in the middle. A real hug, where our naughty bits would rub up against each other. I would hold you for what would probably be a few seconds too long...trying to memorize the scent of your cologne. The thoughts of your arms around me would help get me to sleep on those nights where insomnia has set in. We would go to a lovely restaurant and as I entered I would realize that we were the only ones there. You would lead me to the kitchen where you would begin to prepare our meal. A traditional Polynesian feast. As the meal was near completion you would walk over to me and whisper in my ear.....can you smelllllll what the Rock is cooking?
Eagerly anticipating our meeting,
The girl with the moist panties.
I have dreamed of the day that I would meet you. We would see each other and give each other a hug. Not the church hug with that space in the middle. A real hug, where our naughty bits would rub up against each other. I would hold you for what would probably be a few seconds too long...trying to memorize the scent of your cologne. The thoughts of your arms around me would help get me to sleep on those nights where insomnia has set in. We would go to a lovely restaurant and as I entered I would realize that we were the only ones there. You would lead me to the kitchen where you would begin to prepare our meal. A traditional Polynesian feast. As the meal was near completion you would walk over to me and whisper in my ear.....can you smelllllll what the Rock is cooking?
Eagerly anticipating our meeting,
The girl with the moist panties.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Day 8 - My favorite internet friend
Dear Trevor,
You are the lucky winner of the title of my favorite internet friend. Apparently in order to be my internet friend I have to have never met you, had real sex with you or been in your wedding. So you are it! lol On a serious note, I couldnt stand your Yankee loving ass when i first "e-met" you. You were assigned as my cut buddy in that retarded game and I got to "e-know" you. After that the road got a little easier. I mean there are times when you still piss me the hell off, BUT I love you regardless. You are so supportive, generous and funny. You would make a great catch if you could sit your ass still and quit looking at tits and ass all the time. Above all else you are an awesome father, brother, and son. I am proud to call you my e-friend and anxious to meet you in real life so I can move you from the internet friend category. See you in Orlando after Christmas (i hope).
Love you even though you hate Tyler and love Nicki,
Kandi
You are the lucky winner of the title of my favorite internet friend. Apparently in order to be my internet friend I have to have never met you, had real sex with you or been in your wedding. So you are it! lol On a serious note, I couldnt stand your Yankee loving ass when i first "e-met" you. You were assigned as my cut buddy in that retarded game and I got to "e-know" you. After that the road got a little easier. I mean there are times when you still piss me the hell off, BUT I love you regardless. You are so supportive, generous and funny. You would make a great catch if you could sit your ass still and quit looking at tits and ass all the time. Above all else you are an awesome father, brother, and son. I am proud to call you my e-friend and anxious to meet you in real life so I can move you from the internet friend category. See you in Orlando after Christmas (i hope).
Love you even though you hate Tyler and love Nicki,
Kandi
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Day 7 - My ex
Dear Danny,
I struggled on which ex I would write this letter to and I chose you. Why? Because you are the one that I am still the coolest with. Well when you aint tryin to get in my panties :) j/k (but not really). Anywho let me get on to writing. I would say that my relationship with you was one of the realest. We shared alot with each other, we have a very close bond and we understood the importance of compromise. It was not until the end that our relationship broke down and we both did some things that we probably shouldnt have. I'm glad that we are past that stage, we have both forgiven and moved on. I am happy to still be able to call you friend. I wouldnt be opposed to spending time with you, watching NASCAR or football like we used to. However, you have a girlfriend so that isnt exactly appropriate. I wish you all the success in the world. You are a wonderful father and a stand up guy.
Love always,
Doobie
I struggled on which ex I would write this letter to and I chose you. Why? Because you are the one that I am still the coolest with. Well when you aint tryin to get in my panties :) j/k (but not really). Anywho let me get on to writing. I would say that my relationship with you was one of the realest. We shared alot with each other, we have a very close bond and we understood the importance of compromise. It was not until the end that our relationship broke down and we both did some things that we probably shouldnt have. I'm glad that we are past that stage, we have both forgiven and moved on. I am happy to still be able to call you friend. I wouldnt be opposed to spending time with you, watching NASCAR or football like we used to. However, you have a girlfriend so that isnt exactly appropriate. I wish you all the success in the world. You are a wonderful father and a stand up guy.
Love always,
Doobie
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Day 6 - A stranger
Dear Ann,
You never cease to amaze me. People wonder how it is that you can get on tv and say the things you say. They wonder how you can write the books that you do with such content. I simply reply, its her JOB. 90% of the people I know, go to jobs that they hate and do and say shit that they dont want to. Why do they do it? For a paycheck. Their paycheck isnt even close to the dough that you are pulling in. So I applaud you, I cant wait to do it myself. I got a few books in me that might shake the world. I mean I cant let you and Glenn Beck collect all the crazy people's money. SHARE!!! I plan to take a different path, kind of like what all strippers say they are going to do. Get in, get the money and get out. I have it all worked out.
See you on Fox News,
Your future competition.
You never cease to amaze me. People wonder how it is that you can get on tv and say the things you say. They wonder how you can write the books that you do with such content. I simply reply, its her JOB. 90% of the people I know, go to jobs that they hate and do and say shit that they dont want to. Why do they do it? For a paycheck. Their paycheck isnt even close to the dough that you are pulling in. So I applaud you, I cant wait to do it myself. I got a few books in me that might shake the world. I mean I cant let you and Glenn Beck collect all the crazy people's money. SHARE!!! I plan to take a different path, kind of like what all strippers say they are going to do. Get in, get the money and get out. I have it all worked out.
See you on Fox News,
Your future competition.
Friday, October 29, 2010
Day 5: My dreams
Dear Kandice,
How are you doing? Great! Good to hear...now down to business. I'm sorry I have left you on hold for so long. I have to STOP FUCKING PROCRASTINATING. I am 34 now. Time to get on with the shit I was put here for. I NEED TO FOCUS. Its all in me, now I have to do it. There are people in this world that need my help, and because I have been bullshitting the world has suffered. This little light of mine..im gonna let it shine!!! I am smart, caring and compassionate. I must stop wasting time doing something I hate and start doing something I love. I wont worry about the money, I will be taken care of. JUST DO IT.
Signed,
The voice I always ignore.
How are you doing? Great! Good to hear...now down to business. I'm sorry I have left you on hold for so long. I have to STOP FUCKING PROCRASTINATING. I am 34 now. Time to get on with the shit I was put here for. I NEED TO FOCUS. Its all in me, now I have to do it. There are people in this world that need my help, and because I have been bullshitting the world has suffered. This little light of mine..im gonna let it shine!!! I am smart, caring and compassionate. I must stop wasting time doing something I hate and start doing something I love. I wont worry about the money, I will be taken care of. JUST DO IT.
Signed,
The voice I always ignore.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Day 4: My sibling
Dear Kimmy,
I've been contemplating on where to begin with this letter. Hmm I guess I can start at the beginning. Like most little sisters, of course I looked up to you. You were older, smarter and all the boys liked you. I wanted to be just like you. So imagine how it felt to have the person you want to be like tell you, get lost kid! Stop being a tag along! I was always referred to as Kim's little sister and it was something I hated because I felt like you didnt want to be associated. It hurt. It hurt alot. It took me a LONG time to get over that, as I'm sure you can tell. Our relationship has not been as close as it could have been over the years, but its getting there. I look forward to spending time with you in our old age. Life brings about all kinds of room for growth and change. You are an excellent mother and wonderful wife. We are similar in alot of ways and different in just as many. In time I will give you full access to all my online life...BUT NOT NOW. LOL
Love you,
Kandi
I've been contemplating on where to begin with this letter. Hmm I guess I can start at the beginning. Like most little sisters, of course I looked up to you. You were older, smarter and all the boys liked you. I wanted to be just like you. So imagine how it felt to have the person you want to be like tell you, get lost kid! Stop being a tag along! I was always referred to as Kim's little sister and it was something I hated because I felt like you didnt want to be associated. It hurt. It hurt alot. It took me a LONG time to get over that, as I'm sure you can tell. Our relationship has not been as close as it could have been over the years, but its getting there. I look forward to spending time with you in our old age. Life brings about all kinds of room for growth and change. You are an excellent mother and wonderful wife. We are similar in alot of ways and different in just as many. In time I will give you full access to all my online life...BUT NOT NOW. LOL
Love you,
Kandi
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Day 3: My Parents
Dear Mom and Dad,
Thanks for giving me life. I mean your lives would be so much bleaker if all you had was Kimmy. I am the sunshine of your life...I know. :) On a more serious note, I thank you both for raising me and giving me the freedom to find my own way in this world. Of course, there is always the periodic meddling by you Daddy and I wouldnt have it any other way. Only one man has come close to taking care of me the way you do. (We'll talk more about him later.) Mom, you have been supportive and critical when needed and I love you for that. The strength that you two have shown over the last 3 years is nothing short of phenomenal. I share you both with alot of my friends who dont have both parents and you welcome everyone in with open arms. You have given more to me as supportive grandparents than I could have ever imagined.
I love you both,
Kandi
Thanks for giving me life. I mean your lives would be so much bleaker if all you had was Kimmy. I am the sunshine of your life...I know. :) On a more serious note, I thank you both for raising me and giving me the freedom to find my own way in this world. Of course, there is always the periodic meddling by you Daddy and I wouldnt have it any other way. Only one man has come close to taking care of me the way you do. (We'll talk more about him later.) Mom, you have been supportive and critical when needed and I love you for that. The strength that you two have shown over the last 3 years is nothing short of phenomenal. I share you both with alot of my friends who dont have both parents and you welcome everyone in with open arms. You have given more to me as supportive grandparents than I could have ever imagined.
I love you both,
Kandi
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Day 2: My crush
Dear Andre,
It feels weird to write this letter to you. I only say that considering your current "situation". Its cool though because Webster defines a crush as: the person with whom one is infatuated. Now if I wanted to dig a little deeper the definition of infatuate is: to inspire or possess with a foolish or unreasoning passion, as of love. So I think that's what I feel. :) You know that I love you, you support me unconditionally. You keep me motivated and inspired. Without you some days would be difficult to get through. You actually LISTEN to me and more importantly retain the information. I am happy for your happiness and wish you all the joy that your heart can hold.
Smooches,
Kandi
It feels weird to write this letter to you. I only say that considering your current "situation". Its cool though because Webster defines a crush as: the person with whom one is infatuated. Now if I wanted to dig a little deeper the definition of infatuate is: to inspire or possess with a foolish or unreasoning passion, as of love. So I think that's what I feel. :) You know that I love you, you support me unconditionally. You keep me motivated and inspired. Without you some days would be difficult to get through. You actually LISTEN to me and more importantly retain the information. I am happy for your happiness and wish you all the joy that your heart can hold.
Smooches,
Kandi
Monday, October 25, 2010
Day 1: My best friend
Dear Chuckles,
Dont kill me for calling you that but thats the one thing that I think of when it comes to you. You make me laugh sometimes til it hurts. When I dont want to, you make me. When I first "met" you I didnt think I would like you. You were rather standoffish and a little assholeish. After a year or so I saw that you were someone else. Our friendship grew out of a great necessity..a necessity for protection. LOL We've created this little bubble that for some reason people always want to infiltrate. Over the last 5 years I have never felt closer to another man without there being some sex involved in there somewhere. You've never let me down and i heart you for that. Having someone I can depend on is important. You mean the world to me. I know when I see you I am going to be beat up for all this sappy goofy ass shit but its ok. I have a special song playing in my head right now as I type this...I'll just say 2 words....LENNY WILLIAMS. LOL Ok enough of that shit...see ya later this week you black ashy MF.
Forever your raggedy yellow succubus,
Kan
Dont kill me for calling you that but thats the one thing that I think of when it comes to you. You make me laugh sometimes til it hurts. When I dont want to, you make me. When I first "met" you I didnt think I would like you. You were rather standoffish and a little assholeish. After a year or so I saw that you were someone else. Our friendship grew out of a great necessity..a necessity for protection. LOL We've created this little bubble that for some reason people always want to infiltrate. Over the last 5 years I have never felt closer to another man without there being some sex involved in there somewhere. You've never let me down and i heart you for that. Having someone I can depend on is important. You mean the world to me. I know when I see you I am going to be beat up for all this sappy goofy ass shit but its ok. I have a special song playing in my head right now as I type this...I'll just say 2 words....LENNY WILLIAMS. LOL Ok enough of that shit...see ya later this week you black ashy MF.
Forever your raggedy yellow succubus,
Kan
30 letters in 30 days
For the next 30 days I will be blogging 30 different letters. Ive seen quite a few people take on this challenge and I too will be participating. I found this on Royce's blog. Thanks for the support and enjoy the next 30 days. Puttin it all out on the table! These are the letter challenges:
The 30 Day Letter Challenge
WRITE A LETTER TO THESE PEOPLE :
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
The 30 Day Letter Challenge
WRITE A LETTER TO THESE PEOPLE :
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Monday, September 27, 2010
The silence
It haunts my dreams...and remains when I am awake. Its slowly killing who I was and making me someone I am unfamiliar with. Just when I was starting to figure things out and becoming comfortable in THIS skin, I am someone else. I think the thing that sucks the most is after spending hours and thousands of dollars in therapy to fix one problem....i come out with 5 new ones. What the hell man? I cant catch a break...maybe because breaks arent thrown. At this point I am merely rambling...fighting sleep because I know that if I go to sleep I will have to wake up to a voice...minus a little face... A little face that I love and miss dearly.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Unused intelligence
I, like most people I know work well below my potential. As I was reading my previous post on this abandoned blog that I own I realized, I'm something like a lyrical genius. I should be writing more, and that is on my list of short term goals. I should not keep this genius confined. I need to share it with the world! As of late I have begun to prioritize my life and the unfinished projects that litter my existence. It's time to check off some of these DONE boxes on my list.
I thought, maybe I should be an "urban" blogger. Reporting on the news of the day, commenting on pictures of your favorite rapper and his latest side piece, becoming the latest outlet to leak the newest wack track of the week. The realization that the market is flooded with those already hit me pretty quickly. AND more importantly the majority of those chicks arent even that cute so I would NEVER want to get mistakenly lumped into that crowd.
So I've decided to create my own path. Share with the world the insanity that flows through my cranium on a daily basis. Well maybe not daily because let's be serious, I'm not getting paid for this and I am currently typing this on the computer of the employer that is paying me not to do this. :)
Stay tuned I'm sure more insightful bullshit that I want to share shall come forth in the coming days, weeks, months and years....maybe. In the meantime I've decided to write a self help book, so be on the lookout for:
Girl, He dont want you! How to quit stumbling and fumbling in the dark of meaningless relationships and get on with life.
I thought, maybe I should be an "urban" blogger. Reporting on the news of the day, commenting on pictures of your favorite rapper and his latest side piece, becoming the latest outlet to leak the newest wack track of the week. The realization that the market is flooded with those already hit me pretty quickly. AND more importantly the majority of those chicks arent even that cute so I would NEVER want to get mistakenly lumped into that crowd.
So I've decided to create my own path. Share with the world the insanity that flows through my cranium on a daily basis. Well maybe not daily because let's be serious, I'm not getting paid for this and I am currently typing this on the computer of the employer that is paying me not to do this. :)
Stay tuned I'm sure more insightful bullshit that I want to share shall come forth in the coming days, weeks, months and years....maybe. In the meantime I've decided to write a self help book, so be on the lookout for:
Girl, He dont want you! How to quit stumbling and fumbling in the dark of meaningless relationships and get on with life.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
My Open letter regarding the Slim Thug "situation"
Dear Angry Black Bitches Offended Black Women,
Allow me to offer you a virtual hug. It’s been a rough few years for you hasn’t it? Everytime you look at television you see a news report telling you that you’re not good enough, you’re not smart enough and that no one loves you. In recent days, an interview with themulti-platinum rapper Slim Thug has turned your world completely upside down. You can’t eat or sleep because you have spent countless hours on the internet sending hate filled @ replies to a man who has no idea who you are. And more importantly doesn’t even give a shit.
Have you ever stopped to think why it is that you are so angry? You probably started to, and then cameformer skripper turned authoress, Brook Lynne Carter to express your feelings in the grammatically incorrect fashion to which you are accustomed. She made the point that Slim Thug is not worthy of having a black woman because he can’t book a show and in essence he aint shit. Really? Really? If that were the case why exhaust so many characters and keystrokes on him? They say the first cut is the deepest… that one must have cut pretty deep because all of you rallied behind her. Screaming “YOU GO GIRL!!!” “ YOU TOLD HIM!!!” “YEAH HE AINT SHIT!!!” “BROKE ASS NIGGA!!!” Really? Ok.
As if that weren’t enough, we had a Ph.D. spending the afternoon partaking in this bullshit. Marc Lamont Hill is respected in a lot of scholarly circles, and his intent I’m sure was genuine. I however, have a problem with him engaging in this sparring match when the last time I saw him he was on Fox News allowing Bill O’Reilly to say he looked like a crack dealer. Really? Really? That’s all I’m going to say on that.
Most of you are angry that he took to a public forum to discuss his displeasure with youI know, I know he aint talkin about you. At the end of the day all of this emotion can and should be funneled into something productive for your family, community or nation. While you were sitting on twitter all day, you’re daughters were being told their worth lies in the dimensions of their ass on BET. Your neighbors son just shot someone, and BP still hasn’t stopped that oil leak. So while you were worried about what some rapper said about your worth, you proved him right by being offended by things that don’t even apply to you…ok who am I kidding…he was talking about YOU. Now get your broke ass off the internet before you get fired.
Signed,
Your Beige sister
Allow me to offer you a virtual hug. It’s been a rough few years for you hasn’t it? Everytime you look at television you see a news report telling you that you’re not good enough, you’re not smart enough and that no one loves you. In recent days, an interview with the
Have you ever stopped to think why it is that you are so angry? You probably started to, and then came
As if that weren’t enough, we had a Ph.D. spending the afternoon partaking in this bullshit. Marc Lamont Hill is respected in a lot of scholarly circles, and his intent I’m sure was genuine. I however, have a problem with him engaging in this sparring match when the last time I saw him he was on Fox News allowing Bill O’Reilly to say he looked like a crack dealer. Really? Really? That’s all I’m going to say on that.
Most of you are angry that he took to a public forum to discuss his displeasure with you
Signed,
Your Beige sister
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